I have come to realize something this past month. Being single is very dangerous for me because I am literally too in love with love. I can't wait to fall in love, have that first body thrilling kiss. I can't wait to be a wife again and snuggle with my husband. 'I can't wait' is my key in all this. I am looking so far down the road and trying to 'make it happen' that I am not really listening to what my spirit is telling me. I want to feel all those things and have them and because of that I am in constant battle with myself. I am approaching dating very cautiously and being incredibly selective to the point where I don't have many options because I know what I want and what I wont put up with but the the other side of me just wants to be in love! Wants all this to happen and doesn't want to wait and be patient. I want to find the perfect fit now and move forward not learn the lessons I am probably meant to learn in this new phase of my life. For now I am just working on being obedient and reigning in my go getter enthusiasm toward love.
Write to you soon,
P.S. I made this private so I would feel comfortable being open and honest.